Heartbroken travel influencer Christine Tran Ferguson opens up about her desperate struggle to 'survive' in the wake of 15-month-old son Asher's shock death

Influencer Christine Tran Ferguson is trying to stay strong in the wake of the death of her one-year-old son Asher - who tragically died two weeks after she revealed he was 'fighting for his life' in hospital.

The travel blogger, 37, announced in July that Asher, her only child with her husband Ryan Ferguson, had died. 

Christine has laid bare just how much she misses her late son in a new social media post, telling fans it is 'so hard' to 'keep surviving and living for our little angel' through unwavering grief.

The Tour de Lust founder said she is hopeful that Asher will start sending her signs. 

'I miss you so much. I miss our little adventures. I miss everything about you,' she wrote alongside a photograph of herself holding Asher's hand on a miniature golf course.

Christine Tran Ferguson's one-year-old son Asher tragically died in July aged 15 months

In her latest Instagram upload, Christine laid bare just how much she misses her late son

'I wish we got to see how great of a golf and hockey player you would have been. I've been reading the book Signs, hopeful you'll start sending them to me.'

Turning her attention to her grief, she continued: 'Everyone says I'm strong, I'm not. Here's the thing. Bereaved parents have no choice. To keep surviving and living for our little angel.

'Mama loves you so so much and I'm trying but it is so hard!'

Christine's post was immediately inundated with supportive messages from her 552,000 followers who sent her encouraging words of strength, while also praising her for being so candid. 

One wrote: 'Take your time to grieve and process, there's no rush and no timeline. Sending you so much love, your baby is with you always.'

Another said: 'Sending love and healing. They say our short time here on earth is for soul growth, and our loved ones who have passed on are still with us all around us, loving us and guiding us, and then once our time is up on earth, we reunite with our loved ones for infinity.

'But we are always together regardless.'

A third added: 'My biggest fear would be not having enough pictures and video to keep my baby memory alive.

The bereft mom said she has no choice but to keep living for 'our little angel'

She admitted to her 552,000 followers that she misses 'everything' about Asher 

Christine welcomed her only child with her husband Ryan Ferguson in April 2022

'I'm so sorry for your loss. I'm always thinking about Asher and wishing he was here for you to hold one more time to feed one more time to play with one more time.'

'Your words really hit home with me,' a fourth commented. 'Thank you for allowing us to understand the challenge of what you're going through. 

'Bc the truth is you never know when situations or tragic events this difficult will happen to you in life, and to see how you're navigating it makes you a role model for all of us. I know it's not the role you chose or wanted but you are helping so many by bearing your soul.'

Christine announced the tragic news of her son's death on Instagram, and at the time admitted she felt haunted by his absence in her marital home.

'You did not deserve any of this,' she said at the time. 'Losing you is the hardest experience mommy and daddy has ever had to endure.

'Everyday has been torture without you, this pain is unbearable. I still feel like you're going to reappear but our home is so quiet and empty without you.

'Part of me has died with you. I'm so heartbroken, with no idea how to live a life without you.'

She broke the news of Asher's death two weeks after she revealed he was 'fighting for his life in the ICU' 

Christine previously detailed Asher's traumatic birth, revealing he was born via C-section

'I can't stop seeing your big smile everywhere I go, I hear your laugh and babbles all day and it just breaks my heart you're physically not here,' she continued.

'Your room is empty, your stuff untouched. There's no pain that can ever compare to losing a child & I can't believe it happened to us.'

Christine, who last week celebrated her four-year anniversary with husband Ryan, recently enjoyed a luxury getaway to Portugal with her other half.

She made sure the sun-kissed vacation was well documented on her Instagram page, telling her followers that it was the 'hardest holiday' of her lifetime.

'We canceled our Italy trip and decided to spend the last two weeks in Portugal,' she said. 'It was the hardest trip I've ever had to take but we're trying to live life for Asher.

'We so badly wished you could have been with us, I really hope you were.'

Christine, who is the founder of the travel blog Tour De Lust, welcomed Asher on April 20, 2022 — nine years to the day that she first met her husband in New York.

She opened up about his traumatic birth on Instagram, saying she had to have an emergency C-section.

'The doctor told us he had the cord around his neck so when the contractions happened it would tighten around his neck which led to his heart rate dropping. I'm just so glad our amazing doctors delivered him safely,' she wrote.

'It was a while before I got to finally hold him once I was in the recovery room. I couldn't believe it, he's FINALLY HERE in my arms! I feel so blessed and lucky to be your mother and understand what everyone has told me. There is no love like this.'