Haunting posts of TikTok star who died aged 36 after beating colon cancer where she said COVID ruined her brain and begged followers not to tell her 'it's going to be OK'

Haunting posts from TikTok star Kyle Marisa Roth, who died at the age of 36, revealed her struggles with depression after beating colon cancer.

In an Instagram story posted roughly two months before her passing, the content creator candidly shared that she was 'struggling so badly with depression.' 

Kyle, who had been open about her fight against colon cancer, disclosed that she experienced the worst panic attack of her life and pleaded with her followers 'not to tell her she would be okay.'

'I get overwhelmed when people reach out to me when I'm depressed. I, trying to navigate my brain now that COVID has changed it,' she wrote. 

'I don't need to be told "it's going to be okay", I only need you to understand if I don't respond to you for 3 months IT BECAUSE OF ME, nothing to do with you,' she continued. 

Kyle, who had a background in entertainment journalism and gained fame on TikTok, disclosed that she experienced the worst panic attack of her life and pleaded with her followers 'not to tell her she would be okay' in February 

In an Instagram story posted roughly two months before her passing, the content creator candidly shared that she was 'struggling so badly with depression'

The creator, who had almost 200,000 followers was known on the platform for reading blind items from the entertainment world, which are celebrity gossip stories that do not name the people involved.

During her TikTok videos Kyle would weighing in on entertainment news using her signature catchphrase, 'You want more? I'll show you more.' 

Her content resonated with a diverse audience, including animal lovers - particularly when she featured her pet dog.

Kyle had been public about her health struggles in recent years, as she shared insights into mental health awareness, body positivity, and self-care. 

In a post made in February, she wrote: 'Depression doesn't go away just because some people are nice. This is mental illness.' 

'If you want to be my friend, DO IT IN PERSOBN I hate being on my phone when I don't have to be,' she said. 

'I just had the worst panic attack of my life today and it felt like a f**king heart attack so that was my body's way of saying KYLE TAKE A BLUE OR RED PILL AND CHILL IT OUT,' she continued.  

In videos posted in late March, Kyle, who appeared noticeably thinner than she had been a year prior, tearfully shared that her main TikTok account was banned without reason. 

'This week couldn't have been any better. My main account got banned. All that hard work...' she said while crying. 

In another post where she asked her fans to help report the issue to TikTok, she said, 'I literally need this account to pay my rent.' 

DailyMail.com has reached out to TikTok for further information regarding why Kyle's account was suspended. 

In a post made in February, she wrote: 'Depression doesn't go away just because some people are nice. This is mental illness'

In a video posted last year, she courageously shared her experience of being sexually assaulted during her time playing lacrosse in high school

Kyle spoke out in support of female athletes who were victims of sexual assault or subjected to genital examinations by male school staff. 

In a video posted last year, she courageously shared her experience of being sexually assaulted during her time playing lacrosse in high school. 

'He locked me in there with him, and he attacked me...We cannot allow any doors to be opened to allow for this type of interaction with young girls. I was a child,' she said. 

Kyle's mother, Jacquie Cohen Roth, shared news of her daughter's death on LinkedIn this week but did not disclose the cause of Kyle's death. 

'This is not a platform for personal life shares but so many of my connections on this platform go back years and I have a devastating loss to share. 

'My daughter Kyle has passed away. She touched some of your lives personally and some of your lives via her immense life on another platform.

'Kyle loved and lived fiercely. Nothing makes sense now and we'll understand more in the next few days. Be kind to one another please.' 

Judging from her family's postings, it appears Kyle's death came as a complete shock judging by the tone of a post by her sister, Lindsay Roth wrote a tribute on social media.

Judging from her family's postings, it appears Kyle's death came as a complete shock judging by the tone of a post by her sister, Lindsay Roth wrote a tribute on social media. Pictured: Kyle with her mother and sister 

Her mother announced the news on LinkedIn although she did not disclose the cause of her death 

Her TikTok videos often featured her pet dog, whom she affectionately referred to as her 'furry co-host' and garnered additional attention from animal lovers

'My sister Kyle Marisa passed away last week. As a family we are still processing and deciding how to properly celebrate and honor her life. We don't know happened yet,' Lindsay wrote. 

'I know she touched so many people with her humor, intelligence, beauty, gossip activism, athleticism and more – she had so many gifts.

'If anyone wants to connect about Kyle, I'm here to talk and share memories. I will also keep you in the loop on any memorials as they are planned. I am so sorry to those learning about this loss right now. 

'Any prayers thoughts blessings or intentions for this souls smooth transition are welcomed,' she continued.

Julia Fox was one of the celebrities touched by the loss of the TikTok star and replied to Lindsay Roth's post saying: 'I know I never met Kyle in real life, but I really felt like I knew her. 

'I'm so devastated and have been crying ever since the news leaked on TikTok. I really hope she did it suffer and I hope she knew how much she touched our lives. 

'She was a ray of sunshine and I will miss her deeply.'